When you begin a journey there are many potential trials and
tribulations along the way, some are your fault, come are the fault of others,
some are just a bit of sh!tty luck. The journey I am referring to is that from
non-runner to runner, from casual runner to marathon runner then on to
Ultrarunner, club runner to club committee member, from amateur to qualified
endurance running coach. It’s true, I don’t do things by halves, if I am
inspired to do something I go all out, the downside of this of course is when
that is taken away from you it doesn't half smart.
When I first began running I face-planted the pavement
giving myself a black eye and painful wrist from the way I landed. In my first
marathon although completing in a faster time than expected my poor running
style led to a knee injury which took me out of the game for about 6-8 weeks.
When I got my parkrun PB I pushed so hard that I crossed the line and stood
near the bushes trying not to vomit for about 10 minutes whilst I recovered.
The only DNF I have to my name, at the Hastings Half Marathon where after
reaching the highest point of this notoriously hilly course my knee gave up and
I have to wait shivering for the bus to bring me back to the finish. During my solo Thunder Run the weather was so
bad it took me over 45 minutes to peel off my mud-soaked clothes whilst sobbing
as I was cold and convinced that everyone was disappointed in me (these things
happens when you have been running for over 14 hours). The worst, the
realisation that that bump in my car, that woman who wasn't paying attention to
traffic and rear-ended me had taken away all that hard work. Yes, I do blame
her. Okay it was an accident but she did this to me. I didn't over train, I didn't do anything, in fact I was driving to the gym to train! It might be petty and childish but she is responsible yet only I can fix it.
Now, as my back is strengthening I am finding it really
difficult, knowing what I was capable of and not being able to do it is miserable.
Another side affect of being unable to train like I could before is weight
gain. I try to eat healthily and cook from scratch, yes I make the odd cake and
go out for dinner from time to time but I monitor this. Then begins the vicious
circle, carrying more weight makes running harder, you must run more to burn
the weight off….
The week before last I went on a run with Jerry and Duncan,
it was so lovely to be back out with them. But let’s look back at this, we
walked a fair amount and if we hadn't I wouldn't have been able to manage it –
gentlemen as ever they were accommodation to my weaknesses. I arrived home over the moon to have been back
out on the trails but also sad that I still had so far to go to get it back to
where I could hold my own again.
There are of course many great moments also, there must be
because if there were not why would so many of us keep putting on our trainers
and heading out of the door. If you read back to some of those more grim moments listed above my blogs still look at the positives, the new PB, the amazing achievement of running for 24 hours, the support from friends and family, not the DNF though, that was rubbish!
These great moments
- to my regular readers you will be familiar with many more of these – currently seem a long time ago so it’s important for me to
have a little run down memory lane to remind myself and hopefully get the mojo
back which has been somewhat elusive over the last two years.
I am not afraid of the hard work required to get it back but my body just doesn't feel able to anymore....
I am not afraid of the hard work required to get it back but my body just doesn't feel able to anymore....
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